Saturday, 18 November 2017

Mind and matter

Today's Draw: The Goddess Tarot, Magic/The Magician

Here the Goddess Isis appears without the usual ceremonial tools suggesting hers is a very simple yet extremely powerful practice. The headdress and hawk hint at mind magic. Using intellect to bring about a change. 

Yet there is also creativity here - the magic she works with her left hand. The wall paintings and the Goddess's golden gown (illumination) signal there is more than just words making up the world, things matter too. 

The hawk and hieroglyphics tell me that to have magical day I need to work with a balance of visual and textual sources. Although, like the card, my study room is warm and cosy it will be good to go for a walk this crisp November day. 

Wishing all a magical Saturday! 

Wednesday, 15 November 2017

Happiness is a verb

Today's Draw The Goddess Tarot, Nine of Cups

This card has a more relaxed inviting feel than the traditional RWS (a guy sitting arms crossed as if defending his trophies). The cups have been laid out to nourish other bodies and souls and the woman's gaze falls upon the beautiful moons and stars that she embroidered on the tablecloth.

This reminds me happiness is not something we own, certainly not as a sole property. It is something we do - whether making an ordinary cloth special, sharing a meal with others or simply sitting in nature. 

Tuesday, 14 November 2017

Good cheer

Today's Draw: The Goddess Tarot, Three of Cups

Well this is a merry card. Pumpkin spiced lattes all round? 

Monday, 13 November 2017

The enabler

Today's draw: The Goddess Tarot, Lakshmi/The Wheel of Fortune

After yesterday's Christmas shopping traffic frenzy things look pretty clear today. I've had my eye on a navy sequin dress for the party season and am off to try it on. Taking Lakshmi along for a second opinion although being strongly attracted to sparkling things she may not be the most objective shopping companion... 

I'll need to leave for home by 3, after that the only way out will be by aircraft. So hopefully there won't be too much damage. And yes I am fortunate. 

Sunday, 12 November 2017


Today's Draw: The Goddess Tarot, Three of Staves.

The ten of cups jumped out today (already seen a few posts back) so I stopped shuffling and went with the next card which follows on nicely. The fiery rays of the sun indicate the resolve to act with intent and the woman's red belt signifies the energy to transform intention into creation. 

The guidebook states that with her plans in motion the woman waits for her ships to come in, confident they will carry the treasures of Goddess Freyja. A nice card of the day. 

Wednesday, 1 November 2017

Healing space

Daily Draws: The Goddess Tarot, Nine of Pentacles and Six of Swords

Yesterday's draw was the nine of pentacles. This card emphasises enjoying beauty and pleasure that we have created. A little before it turned dark I cleared up my papers and put away the laptop. I lit some candles placing alongside  jewellery that belonged to my grandparents and others preceding them that I never met. As night fell I did an ancestor spread. It was such a lovely experience. 

The 'wartime' fireplace has been on my demolition list since we moved here and the candlesticks which belonged to K's mother were going to be put away until I noticed their moonly shape. Anyway glad both were still here last night...

Today's card is the six of swords which I drew today can indicate moving to a calmer place. I am reminded by this that I can create healing space exactly where I am. 

Monday, 30 October 2017

movement which heals

Daily Draw: The Goddess Tarot, Rhiannon/Movement

Rhiannon is accompanied by three magical birds from the Happy Otherworld. According to Waldherr their song was believed to be so powerful as to 'lull the living to death, restore the dead to life and heal all sorrow'. 

I like the re-envisioning of the chariot as movement which heals or healing through movement. I prefer this image of graceful movement to renditions emphasising thundering, disorientating speed or those which are curiously static.  

The meaning offered by the guidebook is of smooth transition into the next phase of life as if we are pulled by the forces of fate and fortune. This reminds me that some of the best, most healing transitions I have made have been when someone has kindly showed up to cheer me on or even walk part of the journey with me. I am grateful for that. 

Saturday, 28 October 2017

whatever it means to you is true

Daily Draw: The Goddess Tarot, Ten of Cups

A lovely card to begin my week with the Goddess tarot. There is no need to analyse this one. The ten of cups will mean something different to each of us. This version perfectly captures it for me. Gazing at the moon, stars and sea. 

Wednesday, 25 October 2017

Ramble alert

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Peace

The ghostly white enveloping the witch brought to mind Samhain or All Hallows when the veil between worlds is traditionally thought to be thin. This 31st of October is the 500 year anniversary since Luther nailed his 95 theses to the door of All Saints' church, the catalyst for centuries of sectarian troubles which are still playing out now.

I'm convinced there's some significance in his choice of church and date. At first I thought of the charitable practice of leaving gifts of food and lighting fires by graves to warm the bones of the dead who were thought to rise on night prior to the feast of All Souls. Perhaps Luther expected an audience? Dismissed. By this time the Catholic church had clamped down on such 'superstitious' practices. 

Nevertheless the souls of departed loved ones would be on peoples minds at this time. I think the significance has more to do with Luther's objection to the sale of indulgences. These were spiritual IOU's which promised an accelerated passage from purgatory to heaven which the church was selling to raise money for building projects. 

It's just a theory which I can't prove. Got me thinking of my Dad. At one time he'd have been interested in the mystery. In his later years his brilliant mind was diminished by years of alcohol abuse. Beautiful manners and social graces gave way to coarseness. 'Humour' became a rant of expletives. I remember one about Protestants 'squatting' in his church...He was angry up until the day he died (I think I am a bit angry too). I had a dream last night about him organising his send off in a pub called the Ship of Air. Perhaps he's moved on and I should too. I don't want to die angry. 


Monday, 23 October 2017

owl medicine

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Relax

This card has a waning moon on the reverse which suggests the calm that comes after releasing things that no longer serve us. Clearing out clutter whether physical or mental to make room for the new. 

I believe the owl also symbolises transition. Certainly owl knows it cannot carry everything and still fly. Perhaps it is telling me to keep my eyes peeled and travel light. An opportunity may come along that I want to swoop on. 

Friday, 20 October 2017

Religion and magic

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Devoted

This card reminds me that I don't have a regular (or indeed irregular) spiritual devotional practice. I've been thinking setting up an altar in my study but it seems so daunting. What if I get it wrong and and invoke a whole load of unintended effects? 

Perhaps this concern with rightness of ritual stems from my Catholic upbringing. There is a saying that you never stop being a Catholic you can only be a lapsed one. According to if you are serious about leaving you have write them a letter. I wonder how many people have omitted to do that? 

Nevertheless the Vatican advises 'It remains clear, in any event, that the sacramental bond of belonging to the Body of Christ that is the Church, conferred by the baptismal character, is an ontological and permanent bond which is not lost by any reason or fact of defection.' 

That I am stirred by the Benedictus (partly based on the Latin mass) reminds me of my love of church music. As in the card I used to love lighting a candle in prayer. Maybe I'll pop into a church again one day...

Magic, like poetry, resists precise definition; and in particular its connexion with religion is perplexing. There would appear to be no religion without magic at its foundation and certainly there is no magic in any significant sense without deep roots in religion. 

E. M. Butler

Sunday, 15 October 2017

Anything but

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Spontaneous

This card reminds me of what a creature of habit I can be. My usual practice is to glance at the image and read the book meaning at length. Except with this deck I can't. The creator intended this deck to be read visually and intuitively and provides only a brief overview of what she emphasises are her interpretations. 

That I have a such a text bias is a good reason for working with images. I wonder if I could dare myself to abstain from book meanings for a whole month? Researching the written word is such a well worn neural pathway...Perhaps if I do a few twirls like this young girl I'll glimpse something shimmering beyond my usual field of vision.  

Why not seize the pleasure at once? -- How often is happiness destroyed by preparation, foolish preparation!

Jane Austen 

Friday, 13 October 2017


Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Soulful

Out of the bosom of the Air, 
Out of the cloud-folds of her garments shaken, 
Over the woodlands brown and bare, 
Over the harvest-fields forsaken, 
Silent, and soft, and slow 
Descends the snow....

This is the poem of the air,
Slowly in silent syllables recorded...

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow, 1807-1882

Wednesday, 11 October 2017

Rose moments

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Focus

Just as this girl and the bird gaze at the roses sometimes when we focus on what is going well, on what is lovely everything else falls into place. If not at least we will have had a few moments of joy. 

We can complain because rose bushes have thorns, or rejoice because thorns have roses. Alphonse Karr, 1808-1890

Saturday, 7 October 2017

Slowing down and taking notice

Daily Draw: Earthly Souls and Spirits Oracle, Mindful

This was the first card I drew but in my rush to 'consume' this new deck I overlooked its subtle beauty. Including the lovely lacework star in the top right corner. 

The deck came so thoughtfully packaged in star spangled tissue paper, with a quality box, soft pouch, a candle, a pocket sized moon phase calendar and even some potpourri and a few chocolates. A delight for the senses and a lovely gift to receive this rainy Saturday. This deck wants me to live more consciously in the moment, to slow down and take notice. So I will. 

Friday, 29 September 2017


Daily Draw: Goddesses Knowledge Cards, Ix Chel

I drew the Triple Goddess three times more this morning and took it out of the deck because it was getting a bit odd (albeit in a nice way). My next draw was Ix Chel and I placed the cards side by side to see what I might glean.

I was struck by the two big cats. The lioness appears lower than the Triple Goddess indicating the Goddess is in control of her strength. Yet the lion's eyes do speak of a challenge or dare. By contrast the jaguar's gaze is wary. She remains watchful, attentive as she protects Ix Chel.  

Both animals are born with rosettes for camouflage. Lion cubs lose theirs as they mature into adults (although they may retain some on their face) but jaguars retain their spots for life. 

I'm reminded it is often wise to exercise strength with discretion than announce it with a roar. 

Thursday, 28 September 2017

The crone again

Daily Draw: Goddesses Knowledge Cards: Triple Goddess

The Crone returns as an aspect of the Triple Goddess. I read on a Wiccan site that to have a relationship with the Crone you must seek her out. I'd like to do this not only through internet research. The Crone is associated with Samhain, a time of honouring the ancestors. Perhaps I'll begin there. 

Wednesday, 27 September 2017


Daily Draw: Goddesses Knowledge Cards, Spider Woman

These Goddesses definitely want me to take my time to get to know them. As I've played with the deck this week the same cards keep coming up - this being one of them.

This brought to mind spiral like thinking - the practice of returning over and over to an object of study or a concept and each time making a slightly different interpretation. Sometimes broadening out, sometimes narrowing down, sometimes, sometimes adding another skein or thread. My understanding of the cards has developed in this way through the daily draws. 

I've been pondering today how recursive and linear thought might be shown to be mutually reinforcing rather than oppositional. I can't make those connections yet. Probanly because i"m being to linear....Maybe Spider Woman will help me better understand how knowledge works as a web. 

Tuesday, 26 September 2017

Softly and lightly

Daily Draw: Goddess Knowledge Cards, Demeter

Susan Seddon Boulet's use of colour and the way she creates illumination and ethereal effects with the lightest and finest of strokes has me gripped. Perhaps these cards are more for meditation than blogging as a I feel my words (and camera) can't do them justice.

Anais Nin has beautifully described her work: 

'these figures are out of our dreams, those which flee from us upon wakening, those which are dispersed like dew at dawn, those which fall apart between our fingers like dust roses. 

Susan has a more muted step, or perhaps she is invisible...more soft-voiced, soft-gestured, as the images do not escape from her. She can return from her voyages with intact descriptions...from places never visited by us but which we remember' 

This Greek mother Goddess Demeter gave the gift of agriculture. The message I take is to cultivate a softer voiced, lighter footed way of being in the world. 

Saturday, 23 September 2017


Daily Draw: Goddesses Knowledge Cards: Kaltes

Recently as part of Pull Pen Paint I participated in a session on the divine feminine. I was struck by the fact that although I most of my decks are by women artists and creators I have none specifically dedicated to the goddesses. It made me question myself. Including how I pride myself on being critical and gender aware in the way that I consume, appraise and cite academic texts but to date not so much with tarot and oracles. 

So I have purchased a couple of Goddess decks (purely for the purposes of gender equality)...

This is the shapeshifting moon Goddess Kaltes manifested as a hare - a lunar creature sacred to her. She guides us compassionately to the mysteries of life. I can't find much more about Kaltes on the web. Maybe I'll sit with her a little longer. There is more than just words making up the world. Thank Goddess for the cards...

Monday, 11 September 2017


Self Trust Spread using The Wild Unknown Tarot, (C) Kim Krans, Harper Elixir

I think I mentioned a while back that I won an instagram competition for a place on Pull Pen Paint, an online course using the cards as prompts for journaling and art making. I've taken a break from daily draws and am using the PPP prompts instead. This is the self trust spread. 

It was interesting to get two perceiving cards. The King of Swords, my illuminated self, perceives analytically and is fair. The High Priestess perceives intuitively and can be ambiguous. She represents the shadows so it is intriguing to find her in the position of where I can cultivate my light. Focus on inner illumination perhaps? 

The High Priestess is the archetype of the refusal of the call, refusal of ordinary world obligations. Perhaps why this is why the six of pentacles appears as my shadow card. I am afraid that if I embrace the Priestess' mysteries I will become ungrounded and materially unproductive. 

The ten of cups signals how to cultivate and trust both light and shadow. Completing things already started will give energy and create new space for intuitive or creative practices. 

Overall the energy of the spread is water - creativity and emotions. The High Priestess dominates as a major arcana card. According to elemental dignities (I have been reading Mary K Greer) her water together with that of the ten is strong and receptive prevailing over the air and the earth. 

Rather than yielding to the pressure to be like my male counterparts (here the king of swords, proving points and defending arguments) maybe the message is to learn to trust myself to channel a more feminine energy. 

Friday, 1 September 2017

always learning

Daily Draw: Anna K Tarot, Three of Pentacles

I enjoy learning new skills and seeing work in progress. Both the three of pentacles and the eight are favourite cards. Although sometimes the distinctions between the two become a bit blurry. The three is I believe often associated with mastery. This seems to be emphasised here as different from the traditional RWS image the craftsperson works unobserved, unattended. This suggests he or she has achieved a degree of autonomy and can be trusted to do a job well for its own sake. 

I have often wondered why the master appears before the apprentice in the eight. Or why the apprentice appears so late in the suit. Perhaps this speaks to the fact that life is not always a straightforward upward trajectory. We master one set of skills and then later in life we need to learn something new. 

Or (the more I mull this) actually we really want to learn something new. Isn't it wonderful that life continues to present those opportunities? 

Thursday, 31 August 2017

happy to see the hermit

Daily Draw, Anna K Tarot, The Hermit.  

I took a photo of a lantern yesterday and here he is the lantern carrier although depicted here with a candle. Being a double hermit (this is my life and birth card) it is always a sigh moment when this card shows up. This version I find especially beautiful. Those wonderful wonderful blue tones...

The rain is lashing down outdoors with the odd crack of thunder. This together with the appearance of this card reminds me I am fortunate to have a place of stillness, a mini retreat from the world. Today I am tucked up with mug of tea reading Sepulchre by Kate Mosse - a novel which features a mysterious deck of tarot cards. There is a difference between solitude and loneliness. 

Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is richness of self.

May Sarton, 1912-1995

Wednesday, 30 August 2017


Daily Draw, The Wheel of Fortune.

Ups and downs, light and shade. All part of the tapestry of life. The wheel of life turns slowly at times. Sometimes it needs to turn more quickly. If you've ever tried to slowly fill a bobbin on a sewing machine you will know the need to regulate the speed. Too slow and the result is a knotty, loopy mess, too fast and the bobbin spins out of control altogether. 

This wheel is not simply turning but being spun. The Crone's kindly face suggests the change is for the best. As she spins she places her right hand on the wheel perhaps to steady it. Or maybe this is a clue for the woman trying to ride the wheel? The closer we are to the centre the smoother the ride. 

Tuesday, 29 August 2017

Queenly self care

Daily Draw, Anna K Tarot: Queen of Pentacles. 

This lady is a down to earth queen. She offers practical advice for all manner of collywobbles. Eat well, take some exercise outdoors, get an early night. A natural nurturer she knows the importance of fresh linen on the bed, a candlelit bathroom, clothes laid out for the morning. Such things are easily overlooked when we are overworked, tired or stressed but that is exactly the time to practice little acts of self care. 

Monday, 28 August 2017


Daily Draw: Anna K Tarot, The High Priestess

Like the moons in the card everything occurs in cycles. Difficult times will pass and better times come around again, and on and on...Blessed with this wisdom the High Priestess can sit in stillness observing change with compassion. Time to reach deep into the well within rather than trying to alter change from without. 

even if you are a small forest surviving off of
moon alone
your light is extraordinary

- reminder 

Nayyirah Waheed. 

Friday, 25 August 2017


Daily Draw, Anna K Tarot: Three of Swords. 

In the bitter cold he's walked a mile to offer her his heart and now it breaks. For her more than himself. His face is full of concern as she trudges through the snow away from the home he wanted to share with with her. He can't see but her heart is breaking too. She loves him but fears her wounded self will become a burden to him. She would rather carry those heavy swords alone. What is the hardest thing? When you want so much to love someone back to life and they won't let you? Or when you walk away from a loving soul for their own good? 

Wednesday, 23 August 2017


Daily Draw, The Green Witch Tarot, The Sidhe/Temperance

This potion maker has all the ingredients, tools and resources she needs to create something magical. Her work being subtle alchemy she's fully focused on the task, paying attention to infinitesimal interactions of each addition to the pot. To an observer she appears patient yet being immersed a state of flow time does not weigh heavy on her. The moon is high and still she continues. 

Traditionally this is a card of balance and healing. For me this means applying the imagery of this rendition quite literally. To light more candles, read books and learn about medicinal herbs and essential oils.  

Tuesday, 22 August 2017

burn softly

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot, The Sun

After the lord of shadows here comes the sun...I'm a little concerned about the eagle in this card who looks to be repeating the error of Icarus...

The cosy cottage symbolises contentment, harmony and comfort. The stones and the cart suggest that the residence is the outcome of hard work. A fair amount of material success is needed to purchase a home in such an idyllic location. Yet the card also speaks of the importance of physical wellbeing which is easily forgotten in and amongst out daily commitments. Allowing ourselves to burn out is irresponsible to ourselves and those who rely on us. The card reminds me of the need to make a haven, right where we are now, however small and attend to self-care. There may be peace and even joy to be found in small things like the soft light of a candle and an oil in the burner. 

Monday, 21 August 2017

dark to light

Daily Draw, The Green Witch Tarot, The Lord of Shadows.

The moth in this card is moving from darkness to light. I suppose quite apt for an eclipse day. Or should it be the other way around - moving from light into shadow? 

This card sometimes speaks of abrupt endings - which it is human to fear. I tend to prefer a gentler fade in fade out approach to life's changes. This Lord is patient but where there is stagnation or lack of growth he arrives with his besom to make a clean sweep. Through cleansing new optimism arises. Negative influences are removed enabling positive ones to enter. As the guidebook states 'old situations give way to new ones, and the past is left behind as a person moves on, released from prior commitments'. The yew tree in the image represents renewal, the lunar moth symbolises transition. This card is growing on me...

Saturday, 19 August 2017

She's back again

Daily Draw, The Green Witch Tarot, Nine of Chalices

I drew this card earlier in the week and now she's back. My earlier guidebook inspired thoughts were of intuition, intention, aligned energy and hope. I wonder if there is something else I'm missing? Or if is she asking me to reflect more deeply on those attributes. She is quite a glamorous lady, perhaps she just wants me to put some make up on and do my hair? 

Another funny ting looking back over the blog the last four cards are in the numerical sequence 6, 7, 8, 9. Maybe something in that? 

Friday, 18 August 2017

tarot tomfoolery

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot, Eight of Wands 

According to the guidebook this is a card of good career news coming swiftly. So that got a loud harrumph this morning. And then...

I got home to find I have won a place on an art, journaling and oracle class on Instagram with proper tuition from practicing artists. Woohoo! Looked again at the book - good news from a distance - tick! Good news about a creative venture - tick number two! I'll take that. 

Pootling around on the web I found a quiz - what kind of tarot reader are you. It was fun. The profile I got included a five card spread which includes your personal tarot journey, strengths, opportunities for growth, blocks and guidance needed. I wanted to post but then I will use up all my cards of the week...anyway if interested the link is here:

I am glad I have this tarot tomfoolery hobby. Wishing all a happy weekend. 

Tuesday, 15 August 2017

Fidget brain

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot, Seven of Pentacles

This card indicates that progress is being made on a long term project but there is still a fair bit to do. As a project nears completion there might be an impulse to rush or even to quit altogether. Cutting corners might undo to the labour already invested. Patience is needed to see the work through. Although there are limits. How much polish does a pentacle need?  I'm reminded of my reading in Whitby earlier this year in which the reader was insistent - 'finish what you've started so you can move onto something new'. 

Apparently the skullcap plant is for focus. Researching that led me to find this list of the top herbs for anxiety and depression organic facts  Which I can't take as they would probably interact with my current prescription...Oh my poor fidget brain. The focus fact was enough. 

Sunday, 13 August 2017

Pink petals

Daily Draw: Green Witch Tarot, Six of Wands

Hmm what's going on here? A moral victory over a military one? Not all those faces look wholeheartedly happy for this guy (even his own smile looks a bit fixed) and we can't see the soldiers' expression at all. Are they there of their own volition or were they ordered to be. I wonder if the rider chose his fancy costume which contrasts so with the plain dress of the observers or if he was told to wear it. 

For now I am going to focus on the sparrow and the pink petals. Time to get out in the garden among the birds with my paints. 

Saturday, 12 August 2017

Water dancer

Daily draw: Tarot of the Hidden Realm, Ace of Cups.

The water dancer. Connecting with the water and her family members brings her great joy. Like all the aces this card is a gift,  this one signifying time to refresh the soul and heal the heart. It holds out the promise of emotional renewal and a fresh start. Off to channel otter's playful and joyful energy...

Friday, 11 August 2017


Daily Draw: The Hierophant. 

There is history here both embodied in the person of the teacher and objectified in the amber around his neck - a substance filled with all the knowledge of the past. He teaches ancient knowledge in understandable bites and leads his students to weave that knowledge into their own experiences, histories, beliefs so they create their own wisdom. This history lesson got me thinking that higher education was not always what it is now, it was once different and it could be different again. I miss my old professors, every teacher needs a teacher.

Thursday, 10 August 2017

Pause and breathe

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Hidden Realm, Two of Pentacles, Knight of Pentacles

I rejected the two at first assuming it was about juggling which I don't feel able to do at the moment. Then drew the Knight went back to the book and the text revealed the cards similar energies. This knight doesn't believe in taking action for the sake of taking action. He balances intense inner drive with great patience. It is easy to mistake his steadiness for indifference or laziness. Yet actually lack of drama does not mean a lack of dedication. When the time is right he can be relied upon to do exactly the right thing using the resources and energy to hand. 

Similarly the two advocates a slow, balanced approach. Breathe, slow down, pay attention. Where there are conflicting demands it is better (although undoubtedly hard) to choose to do one thing well rather than attempt too many things and fail at everything. Maintaining awareness and responding rather than reacting is the message of these cards. Perhaps if I had paused to breathe this morning I'd have noticed there is no juggling here.  

Sunday, 6 August 2017

Plenty to go around

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Hidden Realm, Six of Pentacles

I was going to photograph this with an apple from the tree except there are none. The birds ate them. To be fair they have been very well behaved up to now. For years we have allowed the apples to grow large and fall without harvesting them. I can understand why this year the birds thought 'well what the hey' and gobbled them up. I don't mind. This card lets us know there is plenty to go around. If we have something to spare it is good to share. Whether giver or receiver or both (as is often the case) all involved get to feel good.  

Saturday, 5 August 2017

Nurture through nature

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Hidden Realm, Ten of Cups

Spirals of steam carry the essences of lavender, rose and frankincense filling the air with peace and promise. She harvested these plants with her own hands and blended them with water from her sacred spring. She invites the healing properties of these plants into her life and as she sings they begin to release their magic. With skilful motions she moves her hands to summon blessings for her loved ones. 

As the guidebook says life is full of moments of love and connection - some fleeting, some enduring for a lifetime. Some are effervescent, others deep and still. Commingled in a life they create a wholesome existence. This is the promise of the ten of cups. If we no longer have an elder in our lives bestowing such familial blessings perhaps it is time to become more like the lady in this card - nurturing relationships in our lives and the lives of those around us. 

After a week of anxiety fuelled rumination doing myself and those around me no good at all I got a wake up call in the form of an oracle reading on insta. Healing was the message so today as a family/pack K, Roger, Barney and I went for a long woodland walk. It felt good. What can you do today to nurture yourself and those around you? 

Monday, 31 July 2017

Better this than a tower moment

Daily Draw: Tarot of the Hidden Realm, Seven of Wands

She has been wandering in dense fog for a long time. Her mind is a whirl of arguments and counter arguments. She once knew with clarity what she wanted or needed to do but when she hesitated uncertainty insinuated itself. The clarity she had was weakened and the energy of the original decision now has no outlet. A storm is brewing both within her and in the swelling clouds above. A bolt of lightening rips through the clouds and the ensuing thunder shakes her. The encrusted fear based confusion falls away as dust. She knows what she must do. She always did. 

Better a bolt of lightening than a Tower moment...

Sunday, 30 July 2017


Daily Draw: The Llewellyn Tarot, The Universe/The World.

I believe this card can mean culmination. The guidebook also mentions graduation as a key word. Something I have been thinking about a lot these past two weeks. It is hard to see but it appears there is a woman frozen in a mountain or iceberg in this rendition. This speaks to my feeling of being trapped between two conflicting commitments. One in which I have often felt oppressed, repressed and depressed. The other is challenging although not impossible if I apply myself and does give me a sense of accomplishment. The dilemma is the first yields an income whereas the second is crucial for my career (and my sense of self).  

To make sense of what I need to do I tried the horseshoe spread set out in the Llewellyn guide (photo of layout below). 

I chose the Page of Pentacles as significator as in this deck he is known as the student or scholar. Here is what I drew

Card 1: Past conditions - Strength - makes sense I have been trying so hard to make both things work

Card 2: Present situation - Six of Wands - odd as I feel anything but victorious

Card 3: Future outlook - Ten of Cups - interesting as it is a preoccupation with security which places me in this dilemma. 

Card 4: Best approach to the situation - Ten of Swords

Card 5: Attributes of others surrounding me - Four of Swords -???

Card 6: Challenges to be faced: Six of Cups - time to grow up and make decisions as a mature adult? 

Card 7: The final outcome - Ten of Pentacles - Guidebook says enjoying the fruits of your labour, freedom from financial concerns that would be nice!

The card that I am most drawn to is the 10 of Swords as the best approach to the situation. If this means the best thing to do is put an end to situation 1 then I've never been so relieved to see this card. Perhaps the income sacrifice is worth it? 

The other thing that strikes me is there are three tens in the spread. Again speaking of endings? 

Saturday, 15 July 2017


Daily Draw: The Llewellyn Tarot, The Moon

Occultation - when one celestial body obscures another as a result of moving between the observer and the object being observed. The star is no longer visible and here we have the moon representing the night and the amethyst sky the gift of intuition that gets us through it. 

Could the owl symbolising magic, mystery and wisdom be the high priestess in animal form returned to fool in a dream? When all cannot be seen it is not any imaginings but fretful imaginings that we should seek to avoid. I'm reminded of a quote I read this week 'when you are tired sleep'

the night was busy making the moon
i gathered my quilt
and softly
told my heart
we'd come back 

Nayyirah Waheed

Sunday, 9 July 2017

Calm focus

Daily Draw: The Llewellyn Tarot: Two of Wands

This two of wands is quite different from the Llewellyn Classic version I draw a little while back. The woman's posture (seated and eyes on the orb) here appears less expansionist and more calm and meditative. Her beautiful bodice in Gaugiunesque colours suggests to me she is a creative type. 

Perhaps she can use her artistic skills together with intuition to search out new possibilities and hidden options. The gold and rose sky hint that she will experience enrichment beyond monetary gain if she can remain centred and focused while continuing her practice. 

if the ocean 
can calm itself
so can you
are both
salt water

Nayyirah Waheed